For most of my life I never really had much of a relationship with God. Don’t get me wrong, I was involved in my church but I felt that God was on the other side of the universe and wasn’t interested in what I did so long as I didn’t do anything really stupid or bad … and if I did – the lightning bolts would start to fly! I treated God like my secretary – telling him what I needed and the deadlines, etc.
When my life fell apart over a three year span I felt even more removed and separated from God. But God was there the whole time (it was I who had turned away) just waiting for me to stop my foolishness and ask for His help. When i finally did ask for help my relationship became a real relationship for the first time.
What a difference! I won’t lie – there are times when my conversations are difficult. There are even times when I am shaking my fist at the heavens but no matter what happens I know that God has my back and He loves me. That trust has carried me through some very trying times.
I know that no matter what life throws at me, I will be okay. I like this new relationship. I like it a lot.