Today’s assignment in Blogging 101: Write a letter to one person I wished were reading my blog.
I haven’t written you a letter in many, many years. Granted we’ve talked a lot since you’ve passed through the veil but writing … no. I didn’t even write very often when you were around. I was always too busy and thinking that I had lots of time. “I’ll call her tomorrow” or “I’ll visit her next weekend” were said often as the days turned to weeks and the weeks turned to months. Who knew that time would run out? I guess that’s the whole point, isn’t it … we don’t have the advantage of seeing what’s around the bend. I imagine that it’s for the best that way.
Anyway, I know that you’ve been keeping up with what’s happening in my life. Lots of blessings and troubles along the way. Many dreams and plans that got detoured for a whole host of reasons. I’m a far cry from being a fireman or an astronaut, aren’t I? That’s okay though. Overall I like my life as it’s played out so far. I’m also excited about this new writing gig I’m trying. Life is about trying new things along the journey, yes? You were always up for an adventure. Me too. I got that gene from you.
I know you used to write for a while. I found your poetry journal one time and read some of them. Honestly, I was too young to understand some of it but I remember a few of them that expressed your loneliness. I’m sorry you felt that Mom. It’s an awful feeling, isn’t it? I’ve felt it too. Personally, I think it’s the worst feeling there is; so many other bad things can flow from that. I know all too well.
I’d like to tell you that I miss your laughter and your goofy sense of humor. I miss your encouraging words, no matter what life was throwing at you or at me. You were always so patient and honest. I hope that my writing expresses that honesty – being honest with myself and with others.
I hope you enjoy the story of my life. Don’t spoil the ending for me. I love you Mom.