Connect the Dots

Yesterday’s writing prompt has me looking to a certain page in a book I am reading and work the third full sentence into a blog post.  Here goes nothing … For a large portion of my life I seemed to have an abundance of self-confidence.  There was very little hesitation when it came to making decisions.  I was all for the risk and the adventure of the unknown.  I dare say, looking back now, that there was an element of impulsiveness combined with over compensation for a desire to fit in, to be liked, to be accepted.  Most of the time everything I tried seemed to work out just fine. Then there came my dark period, 2004 to 2007.  That period had me questioning just about every decision I had to make on a daily basis.  It seemed that no matter what I did it always turned to crap.  Perhaps the self-confident mask just crumbled. Perhaps the inner doubts about my abilities just broke free and boiled to the surface.  There was something in the back of my mind telling me, If you really knew what you were doing it wouldn’t be this hard. By 2007 I couldn’t even buy a clue as to what I should be doing!  I was in uncharted waters and admitting that to myself was probably the hardest thing I’ve ever done.  Getting honest with yourself and facing the darker half is never pleasant.ATTFPAOTJTMver3-copy Today, my self-confidence has regained its footing but on much more solid ground.  My need for acceptance by others is trumped (most of the time) by my self-acceptance.  It wasn’t easy, for example, sailing this writing business out of the harbor but I have jumped in and look forward to the journey.  As Paulo Coelho once said, “A boat is safe in the harbor but that is not the purpose of a boat.” Anchors aweigh! P.S. The book I am reading is Always Throw The First Punch by Jonathan Almanzar. You can find it